Just a thought. Have you ever made the “best decision ever” and then one day suddenly wake up with big, nerve-wrecking “UH OHs” flashing everywhere you look? When something so good turns, well not really bad but, not as you expected – after you have made so many adjustments already and discarded of so many years’ worth of learnings from so many years’ worth of boo-boos, what do you do? Do you push further, hope, wish, pray, pray, pray, wish, hope, pray that things will get better and all your hopes materialize? Would you do that? Is it worth it? Will it ever be worth it? Would you take the risk of bearing the STUPID mark on your forehead when time proves that it’s not worth it and it evidently never was? Or do you play safe, be a coward, eat your words and go back? So what if you do? The only thing that matters is what you think and feel, right? Yeah right.
So I really want to know…do you stick it out, sacrifice more, wait and see what happens and run the risk of losing more? Or put out your hidden white flag, retreat as early as now and save your ass from potentially losing even more (or so you think)?
New car. Your major in college. Migrating to another country. Work. School. Family. Friends. Love. Maybe you should have just listened to mom. Hmm… Makes you think.
I
never thought someone like me could be pirated by another company. I
thought people who are pirated are only the ones who are really good at
what they do, assets that other companies are envious to have. Hmm...if
I'm being pirated then does that mean that I'm really good? That
I'm worth all the troubles and lawsuits the pirating company is willing
to face? Hmm...this is really flattering, but at the same time
FRIGHTENING because of the non-compete clause in the contract I signed
with my current company.
This
sneaky company is definitely bigger than the one I'm currently working
with. It's multinational as well & is number 1 worldwide in the
industry it belongs to - bigger responsibilities as I would be
assigned to manage a category in their Southeast Asian marketing cluster, handling 4
Asian markets including the Philippines - bigger and better
compensation package too - not to mention the vast experience I would
get if I accept this job offer.
But
I'm scared...I have grown to love my current company & my heart
would be heavy leaving them coz I have already done a lot, implemented
a lot of programs and strategic business plans that I am focused on
achieving.
But
then again, of course I want to grow and should one let good
opportunities pass them by? Maybe I'm scared to leave my comfort zone.
Maybe I'm so scared that what if I transfer to this new company and I
don't excel? What if the new responsibilities will be too much for me
to handle?
Sigh...these things are the ones that are holding me back. But as those mice from "Who Moved My Cheese" say...
1) What would you do if you weren't afraid?
2) What you are afraid of is never as bad as what you imagine.
I am definitely still undecided and I only have 2 days to come up with a decision BAD TRIP!
Life is confusing. Just when you thought everything is perfect, something comes up that would make you realize otherwise. I believe so much in fate and that every single thing that happens to you, happens for a reason. Fate and free will...hmm here's when it all gets messed up. Let me put it this way. I firmly believe that your life and all its crazy options have already been laid out for you by the Higher Up. So how does free will work? Well, in that laid out plan are different paths or what I call forks in the the road of your life. As fate will only bring you so far as to those so-called forks, free will will require you to decide which path to take. It's like those Choose Your Own Adventure books we used to read when we were kids. Now the funny thing is, it's so hard to find out - almost close to impossible- which of those two paths is the best one for you. One of these paths is what I'd like to call "God's Best". And man, you will never really know until you do your scary selection. Or will you ever really know??? You'll never know you've chosen the wrong path until you realize how dissatisfied you are and it's too late already to retrace your steps and go the other way. Now if you think you've chosen God's Best for you, what if you thought it IS God's Best but then again things would’ve been way better if you have chosen the other. And here is where all the fucked-up craziness comes in...what if you have already chosen a path, and then something better, more exciting comes your way? How on earth would you know if that something that came along is God's Best for you or just a great challenge, temptation or test that you have to overcome to re-affirm your faithfulness (or dedication?) in the path you already chose? How will you know??? I want to know!!! Life is crazy. Life is a gamble. I sometimes get the feeling that we are merely pawns, sources of hilarious entertainment by the Almighty -- with all the thrills brought about by watching us go hella crazy deciding on which path to take, laughing at us when we end up choosing the wrong one after endless and sleepless nights of deliberation, and laughing at our pride when we thought we chose wisely when we truly have not. Life is sick sometimes. I hate thinking this way! There are times when you ask for signs just to come up with the most sane decision. Most of the time you think you got your sign but what if all there is to your sign is a pathetic, obscure coincidence? Man oh man! I'm getting old. With all the wrong decisions I made in the past, it scares the hell out of me to make the wrong decision once again as I know it will affect my life in all its entirety. I've gone into being a risk-taker to just plain risk-averse. Why am I writing all these? It is inevitable that I will get to a point in my life where I need to make a life-changing decision and when that time comes, I know I cannot bear to have regrets with whatever decision I'll be coming up with. I wish I had a crystal ball so I could take even just a small peek into my future. Who can help me at times like these??? I know when I pray to God, He'll just tell me "girl, you have got to learn to make your own decisions!" Crap. I cannot do this. There will always be Option A, Option B or even Option C. Each of your options will always entail endless “What Ifs” and probably some regrets and all you have to do is choose the one that has the least. It’s totally easier said than done, I know! Oh my God this is crazy!!! Am I scaring the hell out of you? I hope my life had a Board of Directors to come up with decisions for me! Because just thinking about life-changing decisions I have to make, I know I cannot do that alone. I would need divine intervention in its purest and highest form! Lord, when that time comes & I am on the verge of giving up, please believe me when I say that I cannot decide on it and I lift the situation to you. Whatever you will for me, I will accept. But please oh please make your will clear because all that I have ever wanted is peace, love and joy. Hmmm...sounds like a prayer? Well then, Amen!
© 2006 by Karen Cornejo
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Go to the website above. Enter your name and tell us what you get!
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1. meg- silly rabbit, meg is for kids (right!)
2. Nichole-- Dude your getting a Nichole!
3. Nicki - Plop, Plop, Fizz, Fizz, Oh, What a Nicki it is!
4. Ashley - The Ashley Effect (sweeeeeet)
5. Michelle- Think Once, Think Twice, Think Michelle Nance
6. MELISSA-------P-P-P-PICK UP A MELISSA!
7. Nelso- Marvin the Mountie always gets his Nelson (lol ok)
8. Lauren- A Finger of Lauren is Just Enough to Give Your Kids a Treat.(sick shit)
9. Gina--- Happiness is a cigar called Gina. (works for me!)
10. Brittany -- See the Brittany, Feel the shine
11. Tarik --- I Can't Believe I Ate The Whole Tarik.
12. Sandy- That'll be the Sandy.
13.steph~~a happiness tart is stephanie-shaped
14. Jackie---Beware of Expensive Jackie (aint that the truth!!!!)
15. Clyde---THE FUTURE IS BRITE THE FUTURE IS CLYDE!!!
16. Elizabeth- AINT NO PARTY LIKE AN ELIZABETH PARTY!!!
17. Kelly- A TOUGH KELLY TO FOLLOW
18. Christy - Naughty, but Christy.
19. Natasha --- Refreshes the Natasha Other Beers Cannot Reach
20. Erin: fill it to the rim with erin! hehe silly
21. Stace ----> Got Stace?----> how original.. :)
22. Kellbell ---- Plink, Plink, Kellbell (what the freak is that supposed to mean? Maybe someone can enlighten me)
23. Andy----> Fall into the Andy! ( I might really use that,haha )
24. Melanie--- I saw Melanie and I thought of you
25. Charlene- Charlene- the freshmaker!
26. Marc---Is Marc In You?
27. DJ---->Dj Is Our Middle Name.
28. Chris--->Wear Chris.
29. Dan~~~ You can really taste the Dan!!
30. Mary DiMasi - "Don't be vague. Ask for Mary DiMasi"
31. Whitney- "There's more than one way to eat a Whitney Scherr"
32. Jill- "Good Jill=Good Times" (DAMN RIGHT!!)
33. Alix- "Where Alix is a Pleasure."
34. Tracey-"Let your Tracey do the walking"
35. Rebecca- "Biting the hand that Feeds Rebecca"
36. Brandon- "If you can't beat brandon, join brandon"
37. Alyssa - "Things Go Better With Alyssa" ~Heck yeah they do!! :)
38. Angel- Do the Dew? NO WAY!!! "Do the Angel"~ yea buddy
39. Justin - "Make Someone Happy with a Justin." Hahaha
40. Frankie - "Because I'm Worth Frankie." Watever that mean
41. Kelly (K-Rad) - "Kelly Just Feels Right" THATS WHAT IM TALKIN ABOUT..HHAHA!
42. Kelly (.Glamorous. [Kelly])- Got Kelly? ....herbie does :)
43. Jamie- "We dont make Jamie. We make Jamie better."
44.
alex-"come see the softer side of alex"
45.molly d ''Whatever You're Into, Get Into Molly D.''
46. Brandee - Don't You Just Love Being In Brandee?
47. Maylene- Lipsmackin' Thirstquenchin' Acetastin' Motivatin' Goodbuzzin' Cooltalkin' Highwalkin' Fastlivin' Evergivin' Coolfizzin' Maylene.
48.Hector- Its Hector Time......................waiting.......... still waiting.
49.Tiffany-The Tiffany of your life...damn right
50.Rich- You Too Can Have A Dick Like Mine .. oooo yeah! :D
51.Candice-Please don't sqeeze the Candice....WTF????
52. Steve -- Things go better with Steve. LOL
53. Christina - Don't Get Mad, Get Christina. (lol sounds bouot right)
54. Michael - The Incredible, Edible Michael.....yeah baby
55.~*Fiona*~ It's A Fiona Adventure.
56. Chris - All you add is Chris
57. Meghan- The other white Meat
58. Rae-See the Rae feel the shine
59. Donnie (Squid) - The other white meat
60. MARIE --The Marie that likes to say yes!--it's true, I always do!
61. holly--- He who thinks holly drinks holly. hahaha
62. frankie~ mild green frankie liquid
63. rolando-what can balls do for you?
64. alyssa---- It's Different in an Alyssa (mine is soooo the best )
65. shelley~The Shelley Goes Straight to your Head.
66. Jason ~ Splash Jason All Over (remember that ladies)
67. Carrie ~ Give That Man a Carrie (oh my...)
68. Spamcake Comics - But I'd Rather Have a Bowl of Spamcake Comics.
69. Krystle ~ Have a Krystle and a smile.
70. Vincent - Nothin' Says Lovin' like Vincent from the Oven.
71. Din - Only a Fool Breaks the Deanna. haha niiice.
72. REi - Better Ingredients, Better Rei.
73. may - Get May or Get Out.
74. bof- It's good to talk BOF.
75. Karen - It's Not All Karen, Karen, Karen, you know.
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